Life on the flip side...

Well world, sorry its been so long, I guess you can say I've been neglecting my recovery.  But I'm starting fresh, and I'm digging down deep to find the motivation to get better.  Lately, I've been trying to go in a different direction.  I stopped searching for the why's in life, and started thinking about the how's.  I stopped dwelling on why I do what I do, but on how I can fix it, how I can become a better woman, a better Christian, and a better mom.  Sometimes it's not important to think about why, it's important to look into the future, and HOW you are going to get there.  The best road isn't always the one with the least resistence, sometimes there are a lot of bumps and twists and turns.  Sometimes, life throws you a curveball, and you have to figure out where you are, pull out your map, and think about how to get where you want to be.  Here's what I've been trying to do:  little goals at a time.  I've been taking baby steps, I've been finding little things to occupy my mind, and my hands.  Slowly I find things that can comfort me in different ways.  It's all about finding the ideas that work for you.  I've been playing with silly putty whenever I feel like picking at something.  Whenever I feel my hands wandering to my face, I go for my silly putty.  I work with it until my hands get sore.  Also, I've started a project.  I've picked up crocheting again.  I'm focusing on learning new stitches, and I keep my goal in mind.  I'm making a blanket!  This isn't practical for when I'm at work or driving or anything, but it works when I'm home, and idle.  It's important to find a new passion and a new direction.  Re-shoot your azimuth, and head towards the same goal, with a different means.  There is light at the end of the tunnel, I promise!  God bless you and be with you on your journey!