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30 April 2012
Be Still, and Well.....That's all
I don't know what my fear is. I just am scared of being still. I tried this today, and found that my fingers started twitching, I could feel the desire to fidget going down from my head to my toes. I think this is partly why I pick. I need to constantly DO something to relax. I can't just be still, and enjoy the moment of still silence. Well I think I'm going to try to change that. I'm going to try five minutes a day this week, and then 10 minutes a day this week. I am going to focus on the room around me, the way everything sounds, the way everything looks, and the way I feel, even if I don't feel anything at all. Maybe practice makes perfect. Maybe over time I will be able to embrace the stillness, and not feel the constant burning desire to move my hands. Maybe it's okay to be silent and still, if just for a few moments. All I know is that I NEED to get better. I think I've come to a point where my desire to get better has surpassed my desire to pick at something. I want to feel beautiful again, and if that means I have to be still, well then so be it.
Thanks Erin.
Thanks Erin.
10 April 2012
09 April 2012
work in progress
My hubby decided to cover my sores on my back with bandages. It was getting really infected and sore.
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04 April 2012
Two steps forward and well...that's all
My face is finally starting to heal! I'm starting to be able to look in the mirror again without shuddering. Still though, there are some spots that I can't get over. I'm thinking it's a hump that just takes some time to get over. I dig my pick into the earth and pull with all my might. I can see the top of the mountain but it's taking all my strength to get there. Good thing God gives me strength and renews it daily.
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